Ok..updates..i know it's been a long time since i've updated. A lot of things have been happening. Mostly good stuff. Great job, great colleagues, great managers, awesome ppl. All good.
On a different note, bday celebration this year was excellent! Such great memories. I cant really describe everything in words..its just so fresh in my memory as if it happened yesterday though. By far one of the best bdays ever.
Finally after waiting so so long, I managed to secure a full time job. And to me, that's such a big relief. I got the call from Michelle (now my manager) the morning of July 18. My excitement and joy over the news were beyond words. Was supposed to start training the next day. Unfortunately, due to certain circumstances, I couldnt, which was why I opted to go in for training starting Saturday that same week.
My life has some-what changed every since. I've had such a great week at work. Everyone is so nice and friendly and helpful. They've been training and guiding me thru work. Giving me tips and pointers, teaching me tricks of the trade, and everything else i need to know. Whenever i'm confused over something, all I do is look at one of them, and they'll come to my rescue! That's really how nice they are. As for the actual "work" itself, I'm liking it. Not too much pressure, not to stressful. Although it's fast paced, it's still fun. I have a strong feeling i'm gonna be loving my job a lot (so long as all contributing factors remain the same).
Love never fails.
But where there are prophecies, they will cease;
Where there are tongues, they will be stilled;
Where there is knowledge, it will pass away.
1 Corinthians 13:4-8
I received the saddest news to date on Sunday morning. And what a way to spoil the day. My dog, Ginger, died of old age. He's been with us since he was a puppy, and that was 14 years ago. He grew up with us and was part of the family. He took care of us and played with us and made us laugh at his antics..wagging his tail when he's excited and trying to run away when dad scolds him, or trying to escape a bath, and always running to us when we have food..he was such a good n lovable dog. It will be so different the next time I go home..he will not be around. I didnt even get a chance to say goodbye. But i know he's up there, in doggy heaven, looking over us and protecting us like he always did.
Dammit~!! I hate being sick. Been sick since Monday, and its all thanks to the freakin cold weather here and also the stupid bug that is goin around. Down with this miserable cold. Ended up with a red red nose and even my skin is starting to peel as a result of friction from tissue. Geez..sucks big time! BIG TIME!!
You know how they say laughter is the best medicine. Well, to me, I think that if u're a person who likes to joke and can take a joke urself, then yes, laughter is the best medicine. But there are still some people out there who thinks when one is stressed, or facing a problem with work or things along those lines, joking around won't help the situation. Well, too bad for them. For those light hearted ones out there who always sees a rainbow after the rain, life would be so much less stressful. You get to let loose, and be happy, and enjoy life the way we are meant to enjoy. Anyways, I came across these. I found them quite funny.
Things I wanna do before I die:
p/s: this list is incomplete
I have a new interest. Goin to the gym that is! Joined a couple weeks ago, and have been regularly goin. To the surprise of many, i've been getting up at 6am to go the gym. Pretty impressive huh!
Been formulating a list of "things to do before I die". Still working on it, so i'll probably post it once my list is done. There's heaps of stuff i wanna do before I die!! So exciting actually.
My weekend was spent in Brisbane. Left Melbourne on Friday morning. Got up blardy early to go to the airport. Got dropped off at the train station - froze my butt off while waiting for the city loop train. Anyways, my flight, in fact all flights at Melbourne airport got delayed cos of the foggy weather conditions. As a result, my 10.05am flight only took off at noon!!! Changed gates like a thousand times before we had a proper one. Anyhoo, arrived in sunny Brisbane slightly before 2pm. The main purpose of this Brisbane trip was for me to take the stupid english test which was on saturday morning. Another early start. Test was a piece of cake although there were a few misleading n tricky questions. But it was all fine. Was dead tired by the end of the day. Anyhoo, Arrived back in chilly Melbourne at quarter past 10pm and it was already 11.30 by the time i reached home. Was already having a throbbing headache by then, so hit the shower, and straight off to bed. I'm so glad i'm over with this test. Another hassle out of the way thank God!
"At the end of the day faith is a funny thing. It turns up when you don't really expect it. Its like one day you realize that the fairy tale may be slightly different than you dreamed. The castle, well, it may not be a castle. And its not so important happy ever after, just that its happy right now. See once in a while, once in a blue moon, people will surprise you , and once in a while people may even take your breath away."
At some point, you have to make a decision. Boundaries don't keep other people out. They fence you in. Life is messy. That's how we're made. So, you can waste your lives drawing lines. Or you can live your life crossing them. But there are some lines...that are way too dangerous to cross.
Last week's been a hard week for me. Worked my butt off 5 days of the week some with 12 hour shifts!!! But what the heck, i NEED the cash. Work's not taxing for me, it's fun. That's what i like most - the fun. Certain days were easy, and certain days were crazy busy!! But it was all good - good team work, good customers, good laugh, good food.
It's kinda frustrating how it's so hard to earn money, yet it's so easy to spend money and it just saddens me so so much to see my money just fade away..to see it just slip away so so fast.
Yesterday was actually a fun day for me. Hung out with my managers. Yes, managers. Was invited for lunch and spent most of the afternoon in the music room. Watched music dvds, had a brief awkward jamming session, n KARAOKE session!! Haven't sung in ages, which meant vocal chords were not in the best shape. Stayed on for dinner. We had yummy indian food. We got dinner boxes. Was so stuffed after. Then came the story telling/sharing session. Was a good day. Came home close to 11pm and had to drink lots of water cos throat was all sore due to the singing..haha!! In short, i had a wonderful time.
One Tree Hill. I'm loving it! The soundtrack to this series is totally awesome. Great tracks, great music, great lyrics. Do check it out sometime.
Every once in a while, people step up. They rise above themselves. Sometimes they surprise you and sometimes they fall short. Life is funny sometimes. It can push pretty hard. But if you look close enough, you find hope - in the words of children, and in the bars of a song, and in the eyes of someone you love. And if you're lucky enough, the person you love decides to love you back.
Went for a job interview yesterday. I think it went quite well, didnt feel nervous which was good. Anyways hope something good comes out from that. I'm not putting too much hope on it, but a little hope is still in the air.
This is Simba doin his thing. The other is Simba and his uncle, Scar. Props and lightings and costumes and everything was so perfect. They had elephants and giraffes and birds and hyenas and animals of all sorts. The cast were really really good, no wonder they've got such good reviews through out the world.
This show premiered in Melbourne in July 2005 and has extended their season till June due to the high demand. Even with this extension, tickets were almost sold out in December or early January. The only other place in Australia to hold this show was Sydney. If Lion King ever comes near to you, don't miss the opportunity to go. Loving it!!Some ppl are so cheap that even dirt has more value than them. This one guy is seriously pissing me off. But when i think of it, losing my cool to someone like him is such a waste of effort. He's just not worth it. So i'm just gonna let him live in his own little world, where he thinks he is king and let him rule. I just think he's pathetic. And seriously, the problem is definitely with this guy, cos i'm not the only one who's goin thru this.
Aaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.....it feels good to let it out.
I was on my way to dinner last nite, and we were listening to the radio in the car. There was this segment where they were talking about the wierdest names one could name their child. So the 2 DJ's were talking to this poor guy who was one of the victims of this "wierd name" cases. Well, 20 odd years ago, his mom innocently named him Benjamin. Unluckily for Benjamin, cos he was born into a family who's family name was Dover. So his full name was Benjamin (some middle name) Dover. I can't remember what his middle name was. Anyway, as time grew by, ppl got sick of calling him Benjamin, so they shortened the name, as many would, to Ben. So what was left of this guy's name?? BEN DOVER!!!!! How wierd sounding is that?!!!??! Ben Dover, as what "Bend Over" would sound. So this poor guy was left with all the teasing and name calling of all sorts..poor thing. He even tried changing his name at the age of 14, but he didnt succeed at that. He's still stuck with that name till today.
I had the strangest dream two nites ago. In the dream, a few familiar faces were present but i cant recall exactly who they were. We were at a number of different locations/scenes. Things were happening as per normal. All of a sudden, we were no longer "ourselves". We each possessed someone else's soul - another soul from our group of frens. At each scene, each of us saw the scenario in a different point of view than we would usually see. What made the dream more bizarre, was that 2 people could see 2 totally different things happening at the same scene. I know it sounds strange and u might not even understand what i'm trying to say. But however strange this dream may be, somehow it has hit me hard. It's not always that i remember my dreams, but this has been very vivid. And i seem to feel that this dream has a hidden meaning to it and its trying to tell me something.
Uni started a week ago. So all of a sudden my neighbourhood is once again alive, with all the hustle n bustle of students. The buses are now packed, coles is now packed, trains are now packed. Hhmm..all around my neighbourhood last week i see students with orientation bags..some concentrating on reading their uni handbooks and guidebooks. Some even with maps of the campus grounds..Sigh first day of uni..that was ages ago. Now since i've graduated n dont have to go back to uni, i've been doin the same things day in day out. Although i'm still holding my part time job, i've got nothing else to do other than window shopping, reading, surfing the net, chatting and sitting like a dummy at home waiting for my freaking visa approval. So annoying, yet so satisfying in the most complex way.
Some people are just meant to be born as idiots. It's such a pity that i have to come across someone like this, whom i'm sad to say is probably the biggest loser on the face of the earth. It's people like these who seriously make me wanna puke. They think so highly of themselves, thinking they are perfect and mighty and always right. They think everyone else is more stupid than themselves, n that no one else can beat them at anything.
One person in particular has made me realize how shallow a person can be. I'm not gonna name names here. This person claims that i've changed since we first met. N mind u, this was barely two whole months ago. I mean honestly, 9 out of 10 times our first impressions or first few impressions of a person is always wrong. It's only over time that u learn the true nature/personality of a person. So obviously there has to be some sort of change! I've only know this person for less than two whole months and each time we meet, only a few words/sentences is exchanged. And then one fine day this shallow person comes to me n says: "you've changed". At that time i just ignored this comment, cos lets face it, everybody changes. And now what's happened is that this person is no longer speaking to me. But like i care..y would i want to know a person who will be forever judging me.
I have been obsessed with one thing and one thing only for the past few days. Day and nite, over n over again, and the slightest bit of boredom has yet to settle in. With each time, it just gets better than the last. Well, if u really wanna know, this is my obsession:
"Show: A Night in the Life of Matchbox Twenty". 
1st day of CNY came n went as if it were any other ordinary day. Nothing special, nothing out of the ordinary. I had to work at the restaurant that day, n have been working almost every nite since. It's been really really bz as all the locals come for our CNY specials. Work has been super tiring..late nites..aching feet n sore muscles (from balancing too many plates). That being said, ppl have been extra generous..we've been getting really good tips! i guess they must be feeling a lot more prosperous n what not from eating the yee sang!
As for CNY clothes..it's surprising how i have quite a few new pieces. Some were bought a long time ago, just not yet worn. Some were bought few weeks back. It's already half way thru the 15 days, but i still havent got the chance to wear my new clothes!
I managed to collect 3 ang pows! Which i would consider pretty good. Of course 3 packets is nothing compared to what u get back in Malaysia but what the heck.
Well i guess that's it for my CNY story!
For once in a long long time, i'm not working on Friday. It's nice to NOT work on Friday. I get to enjoy a friday nite at home watching movies.
I spent the day running around 2 towns trying to get all my documents certified. Unfortunately for me, each person would only certify a maximum of 3 copies. Since i had 8 copies, i had to go to 3 different people. So finally got that done with, headed down to the post office and mailed all my documents out. Another hassle out of the way.
The weather is so wierd today. It was hot in the morning, n by evening it started to rain. I feel all so sticky today, reminds me so much of Malaysian weather. I could feel the heat rising from the ground.
A close friend scolded me yesterday due to a misunderstanding that we had. I feel awfully bad. It was purely a mistake and was unintentional. Now, he is mad and annoyed at me. All i could do, was apologize. Whether or not he accepts my apology, that's another question. What i'm sure of, is that our friendship will never be the same, for i will never ever forget this incident. It will be etched in my mind always, whether i want it to be or not. It will always bug me.
This post is long overdue. 1st post for the year 2006. Well 2006 started off great and slowly mixed feelings hit me like a 10 tonne sledgehammer. Problems came and went, one by one. As if I were jinxed somewhat. I was undecided whether to stay here, or to return home for good. But then, good news came. I got a job offer, which helped me make my decision to stay put. Amist the joy, bad news managed to creep its way thru. My start date at my new job got delayed until and unless I get my visa extension. In 4 days, I spent $1000 AUD on my visa application. And that's not the end of it. I've still got lots more to pay. Unfortunately.
I guess you must be thinking that I had a pretty hard start for the new year. However, i still managed to find happiness and laughter in between all the complications of life. I had friends who truly cared n were willing to help me along the way. No matter how much or how little they did, whether it was a simple gesture as to listening, i truly appreciate. It is true what they say, u realize who ur true friends are when u are in most need of them.
At the beginning of 2005, i made my new year's resolution - to take more photos. Today, i look back n think that i managed to keep to my word, as i did take more photos compared to previous years. This year, my resolution is to survive on my own without help from others. Will I be able to achieve this or not, we'll all know at the end of the year.
In just a blink of the eye and 2005 is gone. 2005 was quite a rollercoaster ride. It had its ups n downs, but i truly enjoyed every moment of it. Who knows what 2006 has in store for us. Just hope for the best. But we should all know that the best can only happen if we make it happen. I pray that 2006 bring us luck and great opportunities in every aspect.
Happy 2006 everyone!!
Craving for cake satisfied with this absolutely heavenly piece. Chocolate Mud Cake with ice cream at Greco's..irrisistible I tell u!So exams are finally over. Today's paper (International Business) was all good. Although I only did one day's worth of studying, i think i did pretty alrite. Of cos, due to the horrifying paper on Monday - HR Strategy, my unconcious stress level rose beyond control..i ended up being sick in the stomach n puked 4 or 5 times during the nite. Anyhoo, slept early on Monday nite, by the time i got up on Tuesday was already past noon, n yet after all that sleep, i was still as weak and lethargic as ever. With only one day left before my final paper, i didnt have much choice but to study, considering the fact that i didnt really remember stuff from studying earlier..so there i was mugging away till the break of dawn. And now its all over. I thought i could see paradise, but unfortunately i dont see it anymore. I'm really really worried about HR Strategy. I really really hope to pass..all i'm asking is for a 50! that's all! pls pls pls!! God, i hope u're listening to me, pls!! Anyhoo, results will be out in approximately 3 weeks time, and i'm hoping that God hears me out. As for now, i need rest, the well deserved rest. And tmrw i can start on reading my abandoned novels and start on my desperate housewives, the OC, grey's anatomy, one tree hill, sex and the city marathon..yippie!!
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Had this conversation on Saturday nite. Well no such question appeared on Monday..no where close!! haha!! Anyways, the paper on Monday sucked big time..so hard I tell u!! I really hope i can pass..Pls pls pls let me pass!!
Exam schedule:
Oct 19: APY 1910 Psychology (thankfully that went well)
Nov 3: ECF 3731 Managerial Economics
Nov 7: MGX 3441 HR Strategy
Nov 9: MGF 2351 International Business
Things that interest me the most:
So last nite was all fun...Laughed so much, my stomach was hurting! Was a nice double birthday celebration. There were so many funny stories/jokes/actions, i'm sure everyone had a good time laughing.
*Can't get enough of Dishwalla and Muse*
It's been ages since i last posted something. And without a doubt, numerous things have cropped up and some of them has become highlights in this dull life of mine. Just to point of the major happenings:
My birthday was good! Thanks to all who celebrated with me, especially those who came over to my house - appreciate it heaps!! Thx for the wishes too be it thru phone calls, sms, friendster, email...n thx for the gifts too! treasure it!
To add to all the birthday joy, i now have a little baby cousin - baby Ryan, who has just joined the family on the 27th of August!! and another baby cousin - baby Dylan, on the 29th, same as my birthday!!coolness!!
Work has been good. Had lotsa fun. I'm loving it so much so i think i'm gonna actually miss it when i start working full time. Gonna miss each and EVERYONE of them, including Ken, Ah Man n Pon!!
I would say my life is all well and good, but i still think, deep deep down, something is still missing in my life. If anyone finds that something, kindly let me know.
I love Dishwalla~!!!
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I thought this was so cute. Isn't it?! Hehe...look at that!! With the hair dryer!! Cracks me up!
So last week went well. Had great times. Hung out with frens, watched movies - Monster-in-law & House of Wax. Watever u do, DO NOT watch house of wax. a bunch of crap. gruesome. Work was pretty relaxing last week, considering the fact that we were not busy at all!!
Black Eyed Peas are coming down to Melbourne. And so is Simple Plan. Was debating which of the two concerts i should go to. I think i've decided to go for Simple Plan. I think their punk-ish rock style appeals more to me. Well lets see if I get tickets or not.
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dots..dots..dots..currently speechless..dunno what to say, more like NO idea what to blog about.
p/s: someone, please add some spice to my life!!
Uni has finally started today. My first class on Monday starts at 6pm. At least I don't have to wake up for an 8 o'clock class on Mondays - that would be a total disaster!!
As usual, worked the weekend shifts. Went over to a fren's house after work Saturday nite. I think we had lotsa fun, I know I did! Lotsa laughter - which was good. Fell asleep there, but woke up at around 6am..had to go back home..so being half awake, drove home. Don't worry, I got home in one piece!
Currently addicted to Muse!!!
Check this out. I swear u'll be impressed.
http://gprime.net/video.php/einsteinthebird
Well if you wanted honesty, that's all you had to say. I never want to let you down or have you go, it's better off this way. For all the dirty looks, the photographs, remember when you broke your foot from jumping out the second floor? I'm not okay. You wear me out.
What will it take to show you that it's not the life it seems? I told you time and time again you sing the words but don't know what it means. To be a joke and look, another line without a hook. I held you close as we both shook, for the last time take a good hard look!
Forget about the dirty looks, the photographs. You said you read me like a book, but the pages are all torn and frayed. I'm okay now. But you really need to listen to me, because I'm telling you the truth. I mean this, I'm not o-fucking-kay!
It's July!! It's only now that I realized that it's already 6 months into the new year, well now not so new anymore. Only 6 months more to go before 2006. Before we realize it, it would be the year 2016! God alone knows where/what/who I will be.
Watched Batman Begins as well as Mr & Mrs Smith with Brenda the other day. Watched it back to back. Perfectly planned, but the guy in charge of the reels for Batman Begins just HAD to screw up. As a result, Batman Begins was 20 minutes delayed. Hence, we missed the first 20 minutes of Mr & Mrs Smith. Geez..how sad is that?! Overall, both movies were good.
I wanna go ice skating!! Was talking to a friend, and I dunno how, we landed on this ice skating topic. I wanna know how to skate backwards and stuff, and since he knows how to, I'm gonna get him to teach me one day.
Yippie~!!! Exams are finally over, words can not describe how relieved I am, after such a hectic semester, I'm glad that the holidays are finally here!! So, for my 4 week break, all I wanna do is sit back, rest and relax. Of cos, there's the occasional shopping, movies, etc.
On to a totally different topic altogether, of late, I've been having this craze over Stereophonics. I honestly think that their songs are awesome! Among my favs: Dakota, Maybe tomorrow and Mr. Writer. I love the lead singer's voice..he has this real husky voice..adorable. simply adorable.
How the hell do these ppl do the shuffle??! Shuffling looks so fucking hard..i can't imagine actually doing it...i think i'll look like a clown if i'm caught in the act of shuffling..n i also think my legs will get twisted together while doin the steps..hehehe...
Shuffling definitely looks cool n all..but its so complicated!! Geez..i need to master the art of shuffling!! anyone willing to share their expertise??
Sorry folks, but i have no inspiration at the moment to write anything..i had for a split second a couple of days ago, but i can't remember what it was..so i'll write when i remember what it was.
So, till then, i'm outta here~!
I had gone to church yesterday (when i say yesterday i mean Sunday), after a long time. Somehow, I had a strong feeling, pushing me to go to church. And so I went. I overslept in the morning, so I missed the morning mass, attended the evening one instead.
Going to church yesterday, was a whole new experience. It gave me solace, knowing that God's always there for me, with arms wide open. It just gave me the best-est feeling ever. While i was in church, I kept thanking God for bringing me there, closer to Him, being in His presence, for everything that i've got, for everthing that He's done for me, for every sin He's washed away, for EVERYTHING~!!
Someway, somehow, He managed to solidify my faith in Him, my trust in Him. I came home from church feeling more content than ever. Feeling stronger than ever. Revitalized. A great experience definitely. Everyone should be able to experience this.
i've been starring at this screen for the past 20 minutes (at least)...n i still don't know what i should blog about today. i'm still thinking as i type this sentence. well, let's see...
the past week has been a roller coaster ride for me. it was fun, yet i was taking all the risk that i could take. i dont wanna elaborate too much on that, the point is, i had very important things to do in that week, yet i took chances n had fun. But, knowing myself pretty well, i wouldnt have had all the fun i had, if i knew for sure that my move on the chess board would end up in a check-mate.
Life can be fun, at the same time it can be hard. It's how we make decisions, it's how we choose, it's how we prioritize things that makes the huge difference in one's outlook towards life. To me, life's never easy. Everyday, we're faced with a different scenario, one that we can never predict. But yet, the next day, u're still standing stronger than ever, fighting the same battle. I guess with the challenges we face each day, it just makes us stronger - physically, emotionally and spiritually. You may be thrown into the deepest sea, yet swim ur way to shore. You may be lost in the hottest desert, yet find water. You may be stranded on a deserted island, yet stay alive. It's all up to you. The choices u make determines everything.
So to everyone who's reading this, choose wisely. One wrong move, n it can ruin everything that could have been. But whatever it is, in the words of Robert Frost, "I can sum up everything i've learned about life in three words: Life goes on."
Oliver Wendell Holmes once said; Many people die with their music still in them. Too often it is because they are always getting ready to live…Before they know it…time runs out.
I said it before, in my friendster blog, and i'm gonna say it again:
Live life to the fullest..don't live in the past..if it's time to move on..do so before time beats u at it. Life's too short, don't waste it. Your whole future is still ahead of u, if u keep on staying in the past, how on earth are u gonna grow? How on earth are u gonna know what's in store for u? How on earth will u know what u might have missed out on, all this while not moving on. Mistakes are made. Ever so often u regret making that mistake - any mistake for that matter. And so u learn from your mistakes. I may not be the brightest or the wisest, but i do know that making mistakes is a good thing, cos it is through these mistakes that u discover the path to righteousness. So don't be afraid of making mistakes, else how would u learn?
***For those of u who don't know, Oliver Wendell Holmes is a famous American poet. Born in 1809, he shares the same birthdate as me - August the 29th***
Have u ever felt like chopping off ur legs cos they hurt too much? I stood for so long today, my feet are aching! I wish i had a foot spa or something, but i dont. *sigh* It was one of those saturday nites at work today, very very busy, and i only reached home at almost 1am! I haven't been that late in a long time!
Anyways, jumping to another topic altogether, i know a lot of people who are goin thru a rough time in their life. On one hand, i symphatize for them, but on the other hand, life's never a smooth ride, it always has its ups and downs. I believe it's hard to tell someone to do something, when u yourself is not the one experiencing the situation. It's easier said than done. But watever it is, i also believe that u should always have faith in your self, n be strong! If u have even the slightest ray of hope, hold on to that hope, n don't ever let it go. If u give up now, u never know what might have happened.
However, everything around u is bound to change at one point or another. You can never live ur life in that one particular way forever. Things change. People change. Feelings change. Having said that, it comes a time when u have to eventually move on. Change is the law of life, and those who look only to the past or present are certain to miss the future.
i know..i know..i haven't been blogging..but i have valid reasons!! heaps of assignments, late nites at work, lack of sleep. Can u believe, i've actually had quite a few nites, where i only slept like 2 or 3 hours, then no sleep/rest during the day..its totally insane! but i had no choice. Exam's round the corner, so its time to buck up in studies! not intending to flunk anything *crossing fingers*
was watching something on tv the other nite, n the guy was talking about being rich. how do u qualify someone or urself to be rich? most of the people would say that riches are measured by the amount of money u have, or the property u own and so forth. But this guy said that he isn't rich because of any of those things. He was rich because he had such a great family - they loved one another, stuck with each other despite their ridiculous behaviours/actions, and they grew closer every single day. A family is without a doubt the most valuable asset in ur life. Don't ever leave ur family, they are the one thing u should keep close to ur heart, cos everyone else might hate u in this world, but no one else would stick by u like ur family would.
Friends. A simple word isn't it? It's uttered everyday to almost every person imaginable. Who are your friends? I used to think that friends were the people that you could laugh and talk to.
Now I know that friends aren't that, they're the people that touch ur heart. You could spend hours with them doing nothing at all and it can be the best time of your life, just becuase it was with them. They're the people you can share your secrets with, cry with, laugh with, and just have fun with. They don't judge you or make you change. They accept you exactly as you are. They look at you and they see a great person, one they love spending time with. We all share something in common and are tied together by memories, tears, laughs and smiles. We're tied together by love for the other.
Friendship is the strangest but greatest thing in the world. I find my time with my friends, the best times of my life. My friends are my heart, my soul, my fun, my laughter, tears, love and my life.
Friendship is the hardest thing in the world to explain. It's not something you learn in school. But if you haven't learned the meaning of friendship, you really haven't learned anything.
Choose Life. Choose a job. Choose a career. Choose a family. Choose a fucking big television, choose washing machines, cars, compact disc players and electrical tin openers. Choose good health, low cholesterol, and dental insurance. Choose fixed interest mortage repayments. Choose a starter home. Choose your friends. Choose leisurewear and matching luggage. Choose a three-piece suite on hire purchase in a range of fucking fabrics. Choose DIY and wondering who the fuck you are on a Sunday morning. Choose sitting on that couch watching mind-numbing, spirit-crushing game shows, stuffing fucking junk food into your mouth. Choose rotting away at the end of it all, pishing your last in a miserable home, nothing more than an embarrassment to the selfish, fucked up brats you spawned to replace yourself.
Choose your future.
Choose life.
*John Hodge*
I want to go to McDonald's and think that it's a four star restaurant. I want to sail sticks across a fresh mud puddle and make ripples with rocks. I want to think M&Ms are better than money, because you can eat them. I want to return to a time when life was simple, when all you knew were colours, addition tables and simple nursery rhymes. But that didn't bother you, because you didn't know what you didn't know and you didn't care. When all you knew was to be happy because you didn't know all the things that should make you worried and upset. I want to think that the world is fair. That everyone in it is honest and good. I want to believe that anything is possible. Somewhere in my youth...I matured and I learned too much. I learned of nuclear weapons, war, prejudice, starvation and abused children. I learned of lies, unhappy marriages, illness, pain and death. I learned of a world where children knew how to kill...and did. I want to be oblivious to the complexity of life and be overly excited by little things once again. I want to return to the days when reading was fun and music was clean, when television was used to report the news or for family entertainment and not to promote sex, violence and deceit. I remember being naive and thinking that everyone was happy because I was. I would walk on the beach and think of the sand between my toes and the prettiest seashell I could find. I would spend my afternoon climbing trees and riding my bike. I want to live simple again. I don't want my day to consist of mountains of paperwork, depressing news, how to survive more days in the month than there is money in the bank, doctor bills, gossip, illness and loss of loved ones. I want to believe in the power of smiles, hugs, a kind word, truth, justice, peace, dreams, the imagination, mankind and making angels in the snow.
I want to be 6 again.
The journey of discovering yourself is a never ending journey. I'm pretty sure everyone's step foot on this path towards discovery. However, the question is, how far have u gone?
Along that journey, u will learn that ur life is made up of grains of sand. It's like a jigsaw puzzle. U discover urself piece by piece..till one day, u'll get the big picture. Some of us find something bad in our lives, n strive our very best to change it, to be a new person. And u try to forget the past. But isn't who u were, part of who u are? Sometimes, u don't really need to be the person u used to be, as much as the person u're trying to be. Don't u think so?
People ARE gonna disappoint u, u CAN expect that. But what if u wake up one day and u ARE the disappointment?
something to think about.
There seems to be a kind of order in the universe, in the movement of the stars, and the turning of the earth, the changing of the seasons. But human life is almost pure chaos! Everyone takes his stance, asserts his own rights and feelings, mistaking the motives of others, and his own.
Everything that happens, happens for a reason. It's simply an antagonistic reaction between two scenarios or situations...there's always a cause and an effect, an answer to every question, a reason to trust behind every doubt.
It's hard to fight the things we are afraid of. Sometimes we just need a little help.
I got this from somewhere. Can't remember exactly where. I think that's so true. So if anyone, anytime, ever needs a little help, just know that I'm here, u might not think so, but I am..truly.
have u ever wondered how cruel life can be? it's only when u miss out on something that's supposed to be ever so meaningful..or when u lose something/someone who had a big impact on ur life that u finally come to ur senses to actually realise that YES life is indeed cruel~!
it causes u the misery, the pain, the suffering, the wondering, the hurt, the tears, the longing, every possible emotion along those lines.
well i have no right to question God and his works, the only thing i CAN do is pray..n continue praying that each n every one of us, me included will be blessed with a beautiful life..that we may find true meaning in our lives, find the reason for living, n to find out God's plan for us.
i thought this was nice:
"As happens sometimes, a moment settled, and hovered, and remained for much more than a moment. And sound stopped and movement stopped for much, much more than a moment. And then the moment was gone."
-from the book "Of Mice and Men" by John Steinback.
i've been reasonably busy lately and that's the reason i never got the chance to actually sit down n blog. however!! here i am now!!
april started off with a blast. it was a fren's bday. was over at his house till the break of dawn! yakking n yakking away, having fun, laughing non stop, just pure hanging out with frens. came back home at 7am, n for some reason i couldnt sleep. got up about 10-ish, n was surprisingly awake! that is until i got to work..was so dead by the time i finished work at midnite. other than that, went for a movie outting with SAM (singapore association of monash). watched miss congeniality 2 for $5. pretty good deal eh? went shopping too!!! got myself a winter jacket for $50.
i'm gonna die from next week onwards! i've got assignments due non stop right till the end of semester! minimum 2 maximum 3 assignments EACH week!! crap!
Got to know about this site from a fren of mine. It's really cool..c how much of a nerd u r..as for me...
http://www.wxplotter.com/ft_nq.php?im
anyways, i'm really tired..i'll blog some other time.
Happy Easter everyone~!!!
Uni's started and i'm getting more and more busy by the day...although i don't have any assignments due as yet..just goin to uni n attending lectures n tutes makes me bz..ahhahaha.
Oh n yea..i'm wishing for the impossible..most of the things i want in life..it's almost impossible to get..i wouldn't say it's totally impossible to get..cos i know someway..somehow..someday..i MIGHT get it. But still..everything seems impossible at this very day..at this very moment..*sigh* How i wish life was much simpler than this..that life wouldn't be that harsh n cruel..that i would get a little more credit in life..
all wishes..but will they ever come true? i'm starting to have doubts..someone~~give me a sign, show me a light, reassure me..give me confidence..give me faith..give me..
I'm in that particular stage in life, where i feel so lost n so confused. It's as if my life is missing something, something that makes life itself so meaningless. At this very moment, I'm not sure whether i'm doin the right things or even making the best choices and right decisions. Somehow, everything seems so foggy to me, as if a cloud has hovered over my head, blocking my view of everything. I believe what i need now, is some sort of sign, ANY sign, to give me reassurance, to show that i'm on the right path, that i am doin the right things for the right reasons. PLEASE GOD, give me a sign.
A friend told me, being a good student, a good daughter, an independent person, and a faithful servant of God, is reason enough to prove that i am on the right track in life. He also said (or something to that effect) that it's something good that we're worrying bout our future NOW, when some others are not even bothered about their future yet. Which elevates us to an upper hand..
Since i last blogged, a lot has been happening..but nothing particularly significant or bizarre enough to actually talk about - just little things. However, it is those little things in life that makes life much much more precious n meaningful. Don't u think so?
Anyhooo, in the past week or so, work has been taking up most of my time. Yet, that didn't bother me much cos many of my frens were not back from holidays yet. Now that uni's started, everyone's back, n i've been goin over to their houses more often. That's my resort to staying sane..as in my house, lights are out by 11pm (they work the next morning, that's y). In this case i get bored very very easily, so to get out of my world of boredom, hanging out at someone else's place is the key to sanity~!!
Waiting for the days to pass is killing me~!! when i want time to pass at lightning speed it's passing at snail's pace. Counting down the days..n it seems so slow. *sigh* yet..it will still come.
*Praying that the days will go by faster than ever*
*That when i open my eyes, it will be it*
*Hoping that this will be something good*
*Anxiously waiting*
I've shifted into my new house already. It's much bigger than the old house i was staying in. On monday i had to get up early cos the table we bought from Freedom was scheduled for delivery on that morning. They said they were coming between 9-11am. So i had to wait n wait n wait for them cos they only came at bout 10:30. I actually dozed off waiting for them! I still couldn't sleep after the table came in. I had to wait for the foxtel ppl to come in and install foxtel. The technician came in at around 1pm. Poor him..he had such a hard time with the wiring. Apparently there was some problem with the wall. He spent at least 2 hours doin the wiring ONLY!! All in all, he finished the installation after at least 3 hours, which otherwise would have taken him only half the time. Anyway with foxtel installed, at least i have something to do at home. Otherwise i'm bored to death!
Was working Tuesday n Wednesday. Tuesday was alrite at work..just a normal nite. Wednesday however, being the first day of Chinese New Year, was ever so busy!! It was like everyone came in at the same time, so there was a bit of a rush. And for watever the reason it was, people seemed to drink a lot that nite. We sold scotch like no body's business~!!! We had a lot of mixers to make. Plus~!! we were serving *Yee Sang* so we had extra work n service to offer. We definitely had to talk more..explaining what the *Yee Sang* symbolizes n stuff regarding tradition n the chinese customs, bla bla bla.. LUCKILY i was working with Brenda, cos she knows exactly what she's doin. Anyhoo..dinner at work that nite was superb!! We had *Yee Sang*, long life noodles (or is it prosperity noodles~i'm not too sure) and CRAYFISH~!!!! (It's like lobster)WoohooO!!! It was SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO yummy!! Best dinner ever!
Happy Chinese New Year everyone!! Hope u have a happy n prosperous year ahead!!
I've been so busy shifting house that i don't even have the time to blog. The weekend was one hectic weekend! We had boxes n boxes of stuff to be moved..seemed neverending! Anyways, i'll blog again some time soon i hope.
To all Chinese, Wishing u a happy and prosperous chinese new year! hope the year of the rooster brings u good luck through out the year!
Best wishes!!
With just a blink of the eye, and January is gone!! just like that..it seemed like just a few days ago that i was watching fireworks decorating the skies, welcoming the new year. Time sure flies! One month of 2005 has passed, and i have barely done anything. Just the same old same old. *sigh*
Anyhoo, got the keys to our new house today. Went over just now to check for damages, n i chose my room!! i booked my room..n no other can have that room!! ehhehe. i think it's a pretty cool house. spacious n everything. So, we'll be moving in this weekend with the help of our faithful friends!!
On a second note, i've been thinking a lot lately. Of only one thing. It bothers me to a certain extent. But on the other i hesitate to take a step forward. God please help me think straight.
As already noted, my house was burglared somewhere last week. On thursday morning, i got a phone call from my bro at work. I was still sleeping then..it was probably slightly past 11am. He told me to go to the window n that there was a car parked outside..with 2 guys in it..doin absolutely nothing..looking suspicious n all..he freaked the hell out of me! While i was peeping one of the guys actually saw me..n just fled off..right away! What made matters scarier was that i was all alone at home..for the whole day till both of them got back from work. So, me, all freaked out, was alone at home, with a metal rod on my right and a cricket bat on me left, restlessly watched tv. We went to the police station in Oakleigh when my bro got back from work, n told them bout this.
Friday was so blardy hot! Lee Ping came over to use the phone as hers was disconnected. Asked her is she was able to be at my house for about an hour or so while i was at work till my bro got back. So she did come over just before i left for work. So nice of her! At work, it was really really hot too..everyone was taking the opportunity to go to the cool room!! ahhah..was a very free nite..not many tables. Today at work was the same, wasn't busy at all. Nothing particularly interesting.
We're goin to IKEA tomorrow. Since we're gonna be moving house soon, we're goin furniture hunting! HEhhehe..hope to find nice nice things in IKEA!
Nites people.
Yeashhh..i'm back in the land down under. Was very a good flight actually. Flew with mom to KLIA..then went our separate ways from there. Her flight was earlier..so i had to hang around there longer..but it was alrite..went window shopping! Only bought a bottle of Jim Beam. When i checked in to the passenger lounge for my flight to melbourne, saw this hottie..was so good looking..but me too chicken to talk to him. Hahahha n guess what..he was sitting right in front of me. wasted.
Anyways watched a couple of movies on the flight and played some games. food was ok-ok only. at least the cabin crew were better than those on my flight home! When i reached Melbourne airport, had to get some cigs from duty free for my bro's frens. The queue for customs n immigration was so blardy long..cos i already wasted time buying stuff at duty free or else i would have been at the front of the queue. The queue for baggage declaration was even worse!! it was way way way too long! lucky thing the guy checking my bags was a nice person. i got thru without anything being confiscated. *yay* Alvin came to pick me up from the airport then.
All the way home was talking with my bro about the burglary that happened at my house. YES! some stupid jokers came in AGAIN! I'm guessing its the same guys who came in the last time..cos accordingly it happened the same way. Guess that they have been targeting our place already..n since most of the time no one was at home cos everyone's at work, they had plenty of time to commit their crime.
Damn burglars!! Hope u rot in hell!!
Today I discovered something which strangely had an impact on me. Well at least I think what I discovered is true. Or should I say I believe what I discovered to be true as i speak.
It really made me feel so sad..I myself don't know why, but I just feel sad. To a certain extent, I find it impossible to be true. So hard to believe..It's like glass..suddenly shattered into pieces.
I can't do much about it. I still find it so hard to believe...
Just got back bout an hour ago. I've been out the whole day today..since the time i woke up! Went to the travel agent first..then went to the optician..then went out for lunch..then Pei Chen called..asking whether i wanted to follow her go buy some stuff..since i was out already..i offered to pick her up. But before that i had to go to the bank to make a draft. finished that then only went to her place.
Went to the photo shop as she wanted to print a few pics..met evelyn there. It's been a long time since i last saw her..can't even recall when. Went to Central Square after that. Just for a while tho..she bought lotsa stationaries n craft paper!! lol..Mom called..asked me to fetch her..picked her up n sent her home..That's when Pei Chen n me went for laksa!! *yummy* Seriously...the laksa was yummmmssss!!! chit chatted a while..sent her back then headed home. I just had like half hour or so..just had my shower n went over to my fren's place. Had dinner there n yes more chit chatting! lol.. My fren's dog had puppies!! So tiny!! ahah my dad already booked one of the puppies =P Came back home for about an hour before I went out again!! ahahah..Picked Renee up n went to Cacao for a drink..sat there for more than 2 hours..just the 2 of us..n yes..yacking again!! old stories..new updates on friends..we talked about almost everything under the sun! ahahha.. Sent her back..n that's when i got home..
So tired now..guess i'm off to bed soon..nites!!
By right, i should be in dreamland at this hour in the morning! I know it's bad for my health..but I can't help it! I love being awake at this hour..n i love to sleep during the day even more! I have some serious problems with my biological clock. It's all upside down.
Anyhoo, had lunch with friends today. Wasn't too bad. By the time i came back was 2pm-ish. Didn't have much to do during the day..so dug into my collection of old movies..n found Pretty Woman. I simply absolutely LOVE that movie! what's not to love about it? it's fantastic! I can watch it over n over n over again..with not even the slightest sign of boredom.
Did some shopping for more stuff to take back. Not much actually, it was more like those small items - some toiletries n stuff.
Well, since it's late..or should i say early in the morning..I really should TRY to get some sleep..I'm driving my mom C-R-A-Z-Y!! cos i get up past noon EVERYDAY! hahaha..anyways..i'm outta here!
After a while...
U learn that love doesn't mean learning,
And company doesn't mean security,
And u learn that kisses ain't contracts,
And presents ain't promises,
And u begin to accept your defects,
With your heads up and eyes open,
With the grace of an adult,
Not the grief of a child,
And u learn to build your road for today,
Cos tomorrow's road is too uncertain.
After a while...
U learn that sunshine burns if u get too much,
So plant your garden and decorate your soul,
Instead of waiting for someone to give u flowers,
Learn that u really endure,
That u are strong.
Almost a month!! almost a month since i last logged in to blog. I haven't really had the time to do it since i came back to Malaysia. Once i landed was busy with Christmas already. Visited lotsa people too..from all over!! everyone i could meet. New year's eve wasn't particularly grand, but it was alrite. Had a reunion with my group of frens - steamboat. Went for the new year's countdown after that. The MC there was really really super funny - was a pondan!! Kept on laughing non stop! That same week went clubbing with frens as well. God the DJ was bad..but ok la..still acceptable..played a lot of old songs..n he kept repeating the same songs..made us sick!
Went down to KL just this saturday. Reached sunday morning n my cousin came to fetch us from Puduraya. Went back to his place n slept for a while then had breakfast n steamboat again..kinda small family reunion. Well the main purpose of our trip was to visit my 2 cousins n their new born kids. SOOOO CUTEEEE!! one's just 2 months the other's 10 months. Sent my parents back to puduraya with my cousin on monday evening. My cousin dropped me off at Pyramid, cos i wanted to meet my Monash Msia frens there. Suyin, Foong n Ching Wei came to fetch me later that evening n went back to Cyber. Had the greatest time at Cyber. Met up with old housemates there. Had so many chit-chat sessions till the wee hours of the morning. Reminising old times. Went shopping in 1-U almost the whole day..bought quite a bit of stuff..finished up all my money there! LOL...but it was worth it..i loved all the stuff i bought!! Came back to sp last nite. by the time i reached was almost 11pm.
Called Malaysia Airlines this morning to reschedule my flight. Some Megat fella answered the phone..he sounded so lifeless..but he was ok..managed to change my flight.
Till the next time..Outs!
