Missing you

Heartbroken, heart breaking
Are the roads that I keep on taking
Trying to put you out of my mind?
Only drags me back in time
We build on the sands, castles into the sky
Then a storm came in and time was the tide
Just like a burning house on fire
I just stood there watching our love die

You know, they say love is a journey. But then again, love sickness has no cure. It just drains every ounce of energy and emotion out of you. Love probably had us both blind, and we do things we never expect to. But when I put you on a pedestal so high, when I fell I didn't even hear you cry.

I had to find my way. I'm still trying to, in this cold cold world. But i'm missing you. I hope you miss me too.

flashbacks

i'm finally breaking the silence here. I really can't help it if i lead a boring life.

Boring life = nothing to blog.

Anyways, now that i'm blogging again, doesnt mean that my life ain't boring anymore. But whatever!

3 months into working full time and i'm still loving it! I absolutely love the people i work it. It REALLY makes a HUGE difference when the people/environment you work with is a very conducive one.

Some time ago, while at the train station, i saw this girl who was wearing blue tinted rimless glasses. The sight of her just brought memories of Form 4 back to me. This girl i saw reminded me so much of a girl who was my best friend back then. Somehow we both just clicked. Although she wasnt at school most of the time, she was still a very big part of my "form 4 life". I miss those days with her dearly.

Robbie Williams is coming to Melbourne!!!!!! but me won't be goin to see him do his thing. I would have very much loved to go though. I can't believe tix were sold out in less than half an hour!!! dammit! I'll just sit at home and watch back to back DVDs of him in concert. Front row seats right in the comfort of my room. Beat that!

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Missing piece..

Something triggered my mind the other day and made me think about u. Thoughts and moments with u just flooded my brain. I miss the times i spent with u, the times we watched Jay Leno together, the times we watched The Man Show and the thing with girls on trampolines, the times we watched the comedy channel. The times we had supper at 3 or 4 in the morning. The times we just pig-out and just sleep thru the day, and the times we skipped classes. I miss ur jokes, i miss ur laughter, i miss ur presence. But most of all, i miss YOU!! I wished i could rewind time and spend all those great times with u again, unfortunately the world is just turning as it should. *Sigh* Miss u heaps though.

updates

Ok..updates..i know it's been a long time since i've updated. A lot of things have been happening. Mostly good stuff. Great job, great colleagues, great managers, awesome ppl. All good.

On a different note, bday celebration this year was excellent! Such great memories. I cant really describe everything in words..its just so fresh in my memory as if it happened yesterday though. By far one of the best bdays ever.

My first week at work

Finally after waiting so so long, I managed to secure a full time job. And to me, that's such a big relief. I got the call from Michelle (now my manager) the morning of July 18. My excitement and joy over the news were beyond words. Was supposed to start training the next day. Unfortunately, due to certain circumstances, I couldnt, which was why I opted to go in for training starting Saturday that same week.

My life has some-what changed every since. I've had such a great week at work. Everyone is so nice and friendly and helpful. They've been training and guiding me thru work. Giving me tips and pointers, teaching me tricks of the trade, and everything else i need to know. Whenever i'm confused over something, all I do is look at one of them, and they'll come to my rescue! That's really how nice they are. As for the actual "work" itself, I'm liking it. Not too much pressure, not to stressful. Although it's fast paced, it's still fun. I have a strong feeling i'm gonna be loving my job a lot (so long as all contributing factors remain the same).

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Updates coming soon!!

Adventures of...

So i had a good weekend. Worked my normal shifts and got tipped reasonable well! Today was a fun day out. Was supposed to go to the gym at 9am..but i wanted tot sleep in after a tiring saturday nite. So skipped gym, went out for dim sum or what they call "yam cha" here. The irony of the name..haih...anyway...i was satisfied with yam cha today..we went grocery shopping after that..came home put groceries away, then headed to Blanche's place for a visit..had good laughs, story telling sessions. Entertaining..very entertaining.

Anyways, highlight of the day:
We made a pitt stop after Blanche's house. Where to?? Krispy Kreme. The first outlet opened in Victoria, and yes it's at one end of the world!! All the way at Fountain Gate. So since we were at THAT end of the world, we decided to stop by. Happily parked the car and walked pass the back of Krispy Kreme to get to the front entrance. First comment that we all had was "OH MY GOD!!!" Not because we finally made it to Krispy Kreme and that we were finally able to eat the ever so famous donuts. But it was because of what our eyes saw. People were queueing up, in the freaking freezing cold to ENTER Krispy Kreme. Howling winds did not deter them. Icy cold weather..and yet these ppl braved the weather JUST to eat donuts..Dammit..everyone's influenced by Homer. Anyway, there was a staff on her break outside. We walked pass her, and she told us, that would at least be AN HOUR AND A HALF wait!!! We were like..forget man..we're not that desperate for donuts..ppfftttt!! There was a drive through lane too..the queue was till God-alone-knows-where. The queue got lost in the fleet of cars present at the site. So, yeah n then we headed home. Geez..the things people would do for donuts.

And that's the story :)

One of my favourite verses

Love is patient, love is kind.
It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
It is not rude, it is not self-seeking.
It is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Love never fails.
But where there are prophecies, they will cease;
Where there are tongues, they will be stilled;
Where there is knowledge, it will pass away.

1 Corinthians 13:4-8

Sad goodbye

I received the saddest news to date on Sunday morning. And what a way to spoil the day. My dog, Ginger, died of old age. He's been with us since he was a puppy, and that was 14 years ago. He grew up with us and was part of the family. He took care of us and played with us and made us laugh at his antics..wagging his tail when he's excited and trying to run away when dad scolds him, or trying to escape a bath, and always running to us when we have food..he was such a good n lovable dog. It will be so different the next time I go home..he will not be around. I didnt even get a chance to say goodbye. But i know he's up there, in doggy heaven, looking over us and protecting us like he always did.

sick sick sick

Dammit~!! I hate being sick. Been sick since Monday, and its all thanks to the freakin cold weather here and also the stupid bug that is goin around. Down with this miserable cold. Ended up with a red red nose and even my skin is starting to peel as a result of friction from tissue. Geez..sucks big time! BIG TIME!!

Laughter for the day

You know how they say laughter is the best medicine. Well, to me, I think that if u're a person who likes to joke and can take a joke urself, then yes, laughter is the best medicine. But there are still some people out there who thinks when one is stressed, or facing a problem with work or things along those lines, joking around won't help the situation. Well, too bad for them. For those light hearted ones out there who always sees a rainbow after the rain, life would be so much less stressful. You get to let loose, and be happy, and enjoy life the way we are meant to enjoy. Anyways, I came across these. I found them quite funny.

Things to do before i die

Things I wanna do before I die:
p/s: this list is incomplete

1. sky dive
2. bungee jump
3. experience weightlessness
4. be at 2 places at once
5. go skiing
6. develop a talent for photography
7. own a telescope
8. ride a gondola in Venice
9. walk on the Great Wall of China
10. steal a sign
11. fire a gun
12. live abroad
13. parachute
14. see/catch fireflies
15. sleep under the stars
16. see matchbox twenty in concert
17. bowl a 200+ game
18. see a broadway show
19. learn latin dancing
20. join a gym
    

Random

I have a new interest. Goin to the gym that is! Joined a couple weeks ago, and have been regularly goin. To the surprise of many, i've been getting up at 6am to go the gym. Pretty impressive huh!

Been formulating a list of "things to do before I die". Still working on it, so i'll probably post it once my list is done. There's heaps of stuff i wanna do before I die!! So exciting actually.

MCR

Aahhhh...New found glory, my chemical romance.

Dots dots dots

Blank-ness fills my days...

Weekend in the sunshine state!

My weekend was spent in Brisbane. Left Melbourne on Friday morning. Got up blardy early to go to the airport. Got dropped off at the train station - froze my butt off while waiting for the city loop train. Anyways, my flight, in fact all flights at Melbourne airport got delayed cos of the foggy weather conditions. As a result, my 10.05am flight only took off at noon!!! Changed gates like a thousand times before we had a proper one. Anyhoo, arrived in sunny Brisbane slightly before 2pm. The main purpose of this Brisbane trip was for me to take the stupid english test which was on saturday morning. Another early start. Test was a piece of cake although there were a few misleading n tricky questions. But it was all fine. Was dead tired by the end of the day. Anyhoo, Arrived back in chilly Melbourne at quarter past 10pm and it was already 11.30 by the time i reached home. Was already having a throbbing headache by then, so hit the shower, and straight off to bed. I'm so glad i'm over with this test. Another hassle out of the way thank God!

At the end of the day

"At the end of the day faith is a funny thing. It turns up when you don't really expect it. Its like one day you realize that the fairy tale may be slightly different than you dreamed. The castle, well, it may not be a castle. And its not so important happy ever after, just that its happy right now. See once in a while, once in a blue moon, people will surprise you , and once in a while people may even take your breath away."

Boundaries

At some point, you have to make a decision. Boundaries don't keep other people out. They fence you in. Life is messy. That's how we're made. So, you can waste your lives drawing lines. Or you can live your life crossing them. But there are some lines...that are way too dangerous to cross.

Money come money go

Last week's been a hard week for me. Worked my butt off 5 days of the week some with 12 hour shifts!!! But what the heck, i NEED the cash. Work's not taxing for me, it's fun. That's what i like most - the fun. Certain days were easy, and certain days were crazy busy!! But it was all good - good team work, good customers, good laugh, good food.

It's kinda frustrating how it's so hard to earn money, yet it's so easy to spend money and it just saddens me so so much to see my money just fade away..to see it just slip away so so fast.

Fun-day on a Monday

Yesterday was actually a fun day for me. Hung out with my managers. Yes, managers. Was invited for lunch and spent most of the afternoon in the music room. Watched music dvds, had a brief awkward jamming session, n KARAOKE session!! Haven't sung in ages, which meant vocal chords were not in the best shape. Stayed on for dinner. We had yummy indian food. We got dinner boxes. Was so stuffed after. Then came the story telling/sharing session. Was a good day. Came home close to 11pm and had to drink lots of water cos throat was all sore due to the singing..haha!! In short, i had a wonderful time.

Art-sy Craft-y

Over the past few weeks, i've actually had plenty of free time. So to keep me occupied, I did some craft-ing. I made cards. Simple ones, nothing too funky, nothing too complicating. Here are just a few:

Picture quality ain't that good. Couldn't be bothered taking better ones :P

Vol II: Friends With Benefit

One Tree Hill. I'm loving it! The soundtrack to this series is totally awesome. Great tracks, great music, great lyrics. Do check it out sometime.

Thought of the day

Every once in a while, people step up. They rise above themselves. Sometimes they surprise you and sometimes they fall short. Life is funny sometimes. It can push pretty hard. But if you look close enough, you find hope - in the words of children, and in the bars of a song, and in the eyes of someone you love. And if you're lucky enough, the person you love decides to love you back.

Interview

Went for a job interview yesterday. I think it went quite well, didnt feel nervous which was good. Anyways hope something good comes out from that. I'm not putting too much hope on it, but a little hope is still in the air.

Someone?

It is rare that u meet someone,
Who with that first smile becomes ur friend.
Someone who knows nothing about u one day,
And all ur secret thoughts the next.
Someone who asks for nothing in return,
But friendship itself.
Someone who makes it just as easy to share sadness,
As it is to share joy.

Words of the Day

1. wait

verb

• Defer action until expected event occurs; await (turn, etc.); (of thing) remain in steadiness
• To remain temporarily neglected, unattended to, or postponed
• To work as a waiter or waitress.

noun

• The act of waiting or the time spent waiting.

2. waiting

noun

• The act of remaining inactive or stationary.
• A period of time spent waiting.

3. annoy

verb

• To cause slight irritation to (another) by troublesome, often repeated acts.
• To harass or disturb by repeated attacks.

4. annoying

adj

• Causing vexation or irritation; troublesome: an annoying cough

I've been waiting and waiting. It is so annoying. Seriously!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Jogging

Laugh ur hearts out ppl!!
This bear is so cute.
I laughed so hard I cried.

The Lion King

Last Sunday was a great day for me. My friend Brenda and I went to watch The Lion King musical.


It was very exciting actually, cos we had to book our tickets somewhere in November of last year, cos this is a really really popular show and every one in town has gone or is goin to the show. For the price i paid, it was all worth it.


Yes, I paid $99.75 aussie dollars.

The show was held at this posh theater called the Regent Theater here in Melbourne. The interior is so freakin grand, it's like a palace with walls of gold or somesort. Very exquisite designs on walls and ceilings and every where else u looked. Cameras/video cams were strictly prohibited in the theater, so below are just a few pictures i got from the website.

This is Simba doin his thing. The other is Simba and his uncle, Scar. Props and lightings and costumes and everything was so perfect. They had elephants and giraffes and birds and hyenas and animals of all sorts. The cast were really really good, no wonder they've got such good reviews through out the world.

This show premiered in Melbourne in July 2005 and has extended their season till June due to the high demand. Even with this extension, tickets were almost sold out in December or early January. The only other place in Australia to hold this show was Sydney. If Lion King ever comes near to you, don't miss the opportunity to go. Loving it!!

Even dirt is more valuable

Some ppl are so cheap that even dirt has more value than them. This one guy is seriously pissing me off. But when i think of it, losing my cool to someone like him is such a waste of effort. He's just not worth it. So i'm just gonna let him live in his own little world, where he thinks he is king and let him rule. I just think he's pathetic. And seriously, the problem is definitely with this guy, cos i'm not the only one who's goin thru this.

Aaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.....it feels good to let it out.

Poor Guy with a Wierd Name

I was on my way to dinner last nite, and we were listening to the radio in the car. There was this segment where they were talking about the wierdest names one could name their child. So the 2 DJ's were talking to this poor guy who was one of the victims of this "wierd name" cases. Well, 20 odd years ago, his mom innocently named him Benjamin. Unluckily for Benjamin, cos he was born into a family who's family name was Dover. So his full name was Benjamin (some middle name) Dover. I can't remember what his middle name was. Anyway, as time grew by, ppl got sick of calling him Benjamin, so they shortened the name, as many would, to Ben. So what was left of this guy's name?? BEN DOVER!!!!! How wierd sounding is that?!!!??! Ben Dover, as what "Bend Over" would sound. So this poor guy was left with all the teasing and name calling of all sorts..poor thing. He even tried changing his name at the age of 14, but he didnt succeed at that. He's still stuck with that name till today.

Strange Dream

I had the strangest dream two nites ago. In the dream, a few familiar faces were present but i cant recall exactly who they were. We were at a number of different locations/scenes. Things were happening as per normal. All of a sudden, we were no longer "ourselves". We each possessed someone else's soul - another soul from our group of frens. At each scene, each of us saw the scenario in a different point of view than we would usually see. What made the dream more bizarre, was that 2 people could see 2 totally different things happening at the same scene. I know it sounds strange and u might not even understand what i'm trying to say. But however strange this dream may be, somehow it has hit me hard. It's not always that i remember my dreams, but this has been very vivid. And i seem to feel that this dream has a hidden meaning to it and its trying to tell me something.

Awful Day

Seriously ppl, there's always something tearing u apart, it's always so much longer than u counted on, and it hits u so much harder than u ever thought!!! I never realized how true that was till today. You may be the strongest rock, but eventually, u will crumble n break. You may be the toughest person on the outside, but deep down inside, all you wanna do is scream and cry and release all ur frustration. At one point or another in your life, i'm sure u'll understand what i mean. It has been an awful day for me, but i survived with the support of great frens. Thank u so very much.

Stupid IELTS is now becoming such a pain in the ass. I now have to fly interstate just to take the exam. Well, hopefully i DO get a spot in the earliest possible date, which is probably 2 months from now.

I really hope things work out for the best for me *prays*

Everyday is the same

Uni started a week ago. So all of a sudden my neighbourhood is once again alive, with all the hustle n bustle of students. The buses are now packed, coles is now packed, trains are now packed. Hhmm..all around my neighbourhood last week i see students with orientation bags..some concentrating on reading their uni handbooks and guidebooks. Some even with maps of the campus grounds..Sigh first day of uni..that was ages ago. Now since i've graduated n dont have to go back to uni, i've been doin the same things day in day out. Although i'm still holding my part time job, i've got nothing else to do other than window shopping, reading, surfing the net, chatting and sitting like a dummy at home waiting for my freaking visa approval. So annoying, yet so satisfying in the most complex way.

How shallow can people get?

Some people are just meant to be born as idiots. It's such a pity that i have to come across someone like this, whom i'm sad to say is probably the biggest loser on the face of the earth. It's people like these who seriously make me wanna puke. They think so highly of themselves, thinking they are perfect and mighty and always right. They think everyone else is more stupid than themselves, n that no one else can beat them at anything.

One person in particular has made me realize how shallow a person can be. I'm not gonna name names here. This person claims that i've changed since we first met. N mind u, this was barely two whole months ago. I mean honestly, 9 out of 10 times our first impressions or first few impressions of a person is always wrong. It's only over time that u learn the true nature/personality of a person. So obviously there has to be some sort of change! I've only know this person for less than two whole months and each time we meet, only a few words/sentences is exchanged. And then one fine day this shallow person comes to me n says: "you've changed". At that time i just ignored this comment, cos lets face it, everybody changes. And now what's happened is that this person is no longer speaking to me. But like i care..y would i want to know a person who will be forever judging me.

Random

And life ain't no beauty show,
We don't know where tomorrow ends,
And when we're sad,
It's kind of a drag...

My obsesion

I have been obsessed with one thing and one thing only for the past few days. Day and nite, over n over again, and the slightest bit of boredom has yet to settle in. With each time, it just gets better than the last. Well, if u really wanna know, this is my obsession:

"Show: A Night in the Life of Matchbox Twenty".

It's a DVD of one of their concerts. It was recorded live at Philips Arena, Atlanta, somewhere in 2004. Their performance is excellent. I can see the passion in them that erupts like a volcano. And the love for music that just flows from the heart, willingly. The richness in their vocals and the power of their performance is beyond words.

This brings me joy. This brings me happiness. This brings me back to my love for music.

Rob Thomas

Rob Thomas was A-W-E-S-O-M-E!!!!!!!!!!!

I know that at one point or another, my memory will fail me. Which is why i'm blogging. Webster hasn't found the word to describe the feeling i'm experiencing right now. Being in the presence of Rob Thomas while he does what he does best is simply overwhelming. My heart just melted the moment he sang his first few words to his first song. A person with such a sensational voice. I love music to bits and this is what makes me love music to bits. I love the way he worked the crowd, how he interacted, and how he made us feel special. I love the bit where the tour crew brought out his birthday cake and i love the bit where we unanimously sang Happy Birthday. I also loved his down to earth nature, for being so warm, and being so shy at the same time. I loved the bit where he jokingly wrestled with his guitarist and when he joked about the difficulty the crew guy experienced when trying to move the keyboard platform backstage. I especially loved the bit where he sang songs from matchbox twenty.

It was sad that the concert had to end. One of the best 2 hours of my life and I would do it all over again without thinking twice. The best way i have ever spent my money. Worth my every single cent. And if matchbox twenty were to come, I would definitely be there too. Cheering and screaming and singing along to all their oh-so-perfect noise.

Ordinary CNY

1st day of CNY came n went as if it were any other ordinary day. Nothing special, nothing out of the ordinary. I had to work at the restaurant that day, n have been working almost every nite since. It's been really really bz as all the locals come for our CNY specials. Work has been super tiring..late nites..aching feet n sore muscles (from balancing too many plates). That being said, ppl have been extra generous..we've been getting really good tips! i guess they must be feeling a lot more prosperous n what not from eating the yee sang!

As for CNY clothes..it's surprising how i have quite a few new pieces. Some were bought a long time ago, just not yet worn. Some were bought few weeks back. It's already half way thru the 15 days, but i still havent got the chance to wear my new clothes!

I managed to collect 3 ang pows! Which i would consider pretty good. Of course 3 packets is nothing compared to what u get back in Malaysia but what the heck.

Well i guess that's it for my CNY story!

My Friday

For once in a long long time, i'm not working on Friday. It's nice to NOT work on Friday. I get to enjoy a friday nite at home watching movies.

I spent the day running around 2 towns trying to get all my documents certified. Unfortunately for me, each person would only certify a maximum of 3 copies. Since i had 8 copies, i had to go to 3 different people. So finally got that done with, headed down to the post office and mailed all my documents out. Another hassle out of the way.

The weather is so wierd today. It was hot in the morning, n by evening it started to rain. I feel all so sticky today, reminds me so much of Malaysian weather. I could feel the heat rising from the ground.

Misunderstandings are certainly horrible

A close friend scolded me yesterday due to a misunderstanding that we had. I feel awfully bad. It was purely a mistake and was unintentional. Now, he is mad and annoyed at me. All i could do, was apologize. Whether or not he accepts my apology, that's another question. What i'm sure of, is that our friendship will never be the same, for i will never ever forget this incident. It will be etched in my mind always, whether i want it to be or not. It will always bug me.

1st post

This post is long overdue. 1st post for the year 2006. Well 2006 started off great and slowly mixed feelings hit me like a 10 tonne sledgehammer. Problems came and went, one by one. As if I were jinxed somewhat. I was undecided whether to stay here, or to return home for good. But then, good news came. I got a job offer, which helped me make my decision to stay put. Amist the joy, bad news managed to creep its way thru. My start date at my new job got delayed until and unless I get my visa extension. In 4 days, I spent $1000 AUD on my visa application. And that's not the end of it. I've still got lots more to pay. Unfortunately.

I guess you must be thinking that I had a pretty hard start for the new year. However, i still managed to find happiness and laughter in between all the complications of life. I had friends who truly cared n were willing to help me along the way. No matter how much or how little they did, whether it was a simple gesture as to listening, i truly appreciate. It is true what they say, u realize who ur true friends are when u are in most need of them.