lost in a sea of confusion

I have never been this confused before. My mind is so bogged down that i can't even do anything else. Filled with mixed emotions, i don't even know what to expect or what to do...my mind just goes completely blank, with only the memory of one thing goin on in my head..over and over again..that it sends chills down my spine..chills so cold it makes me so numb, inside n out. Sometimes it hurts so bad to know that i can't have it.